I can see clearly now, the rain is gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
I think I can make it now, the pain is gone.
All of the bad feelings have disappeared.
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for.
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
Look all around, there’s nothin’ but blue skies.
Look straight ahead, nothin’ but blue skies.
I can see clearly now, the rain is gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
….by Johnny Nash.
I was sung awake by Fairies this morning. I could not remember the rest of the lyrics, but the refrain was stuck on repeat in my mind: It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright,
Sun-Shiny day. The sun in fact was shining outside, etching the houses with early morning Rose Gold. I felt physically light; happy blood coursing through my body. I felt like I’d swallowed a sun.
It is my birthday. Someone wished me happiness for my “new year”, something we often wish each other on our birthdays. I smiled because a soft secret was unfolding inside me. I AM HAPPY!
Perhaps this sounds a bit lame to my readers who are able to jump out of bed nearly every morning, filled with curiosity, a smile on their lips. But my readers who understand that sheets can sometimes weigh up to 500 lbs. know the significance of getting up one morning and feeling that a deep well of happiness has opened up inside of you.
Later in the morning I was gifted with the source of the persistent tune in my brain and the lyrics to the song. I Can See Clearly Now by Johnny Nash.
Last year I was gifted with a new friend who knows all about being joyful. She is one of those people who smile all the time. And it is genuine. Not a nervous smile. Not a “fixed face”. A genuine, unconscious expression of her connection to joy.
She lent me a book about Joy, and later gave me an old cassette tape of a presentation that someone gave about joy. And, I was gifted last year also with the privilege of taking an on-line course with the famous teacher, Jean Houston to help me understand my life purpose. She talked a lot about joy.
It was a year of revelations for me. A year of choices—to travel a path of Love and Joy and what it will require of me, or continue the rocky road I’ve been building for decades. I, of course, chose the path of Love and Joy—wasn’t this what I’d been trying for 30 years to make myself into—a woman who lives from a healed heart of love?
I chose and God responded. I was shown where I’d buried all the toxic anger and rage and shame that has been leaking its poison into my life for as long as I was aware enough to know it was wise to bury unspeakable thoughts and feelings. Was I willing to dig that up and dispose of it properly?
I was shown a book of beliefs written in my own blood—negative beliefs that have nothing to do with the love and joy that are the fabric of the Universe. Was I willing to give them up and write new ones?
I was challenged to practice love and joy in the face of my greatest fear—that I would be abandoned, forgotten, unloved. Would I choose love and joy with no guarantees of outcome?
I was ready. I said yes, and yes, and yes and kept my feet on the path. Through the tumultuous spring. Through the heat of summer. Through the uncertainties of the Fall. Through the confusion of the Holidays. Into the dawn of this auspicious year—2012.
Yes, I believe I was serenaded into waking by Fairies…and maybe a few Angels this morning. Perhaps they are the same ones who were around when I entered the world more than half a century ago.
I think I can make it now, the pain is gone.
All of the bad feelings have disappeared.
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for.
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
It’s Marvelous Monday, it’s my birthday, and it is gonna be a bright, bright, bright Sun-Shiny year!
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